Finally Human
So i finally get the gist on what it feels like to be human…
:p
Yes yes i guess i’ve mostly been living in my fairy dream world
Unperturbed by the reality of trouble and sadness
I’ve always somehow been able to be happy no matter what
And i’m losing that ability increasingly since a month or so back
I hope it’s just a phase
I hope it’s not because i’m growing older and unable to conjure up that spark
I hope it goes away
Nowadays everytime i close my eyes and fall into slumber
I have the most god-awful nightmares
I’m not used to having nightmares
Strange dreams including things like jumping clocks and shit like that, yea
But not scary freaky TheCell-like jitters
They come in fast short stories
Another beginning just as the last one ends
It’s tiring
It makes me not want to sleep alone
It makes me not want to sleep sometimes even
Perhaps this is why i look so goddamn tired even tho i *have* been getting enough sleep
I bumped into my trainer today and he said i looked exhausted and told me to rest more
I replied weakly that i have*
The other day i woke up because i punched the wall
How absurd is that
I was dreaming that an alien monkey attacked me and i tried to box him off
My fist lashed out in reality and just so happened the damn wall was right in front of me…
Sakitness i tell you
Fighter, someone said
*i know you have everything. Perhaps it’s time you email me since i don’t have your number. Ey.
Luck is Looking Up
Well
Aaron came to see how i was and i was sitting upright in the car
(my friends can tell you that my small stature allows me to sit in funny positions while talking in the car)
And i broke my red Toys R ‘Us glitter hair band
I love it cos it’s so kiddy and happy
The moment i bumped my head, i knew* it broke somehow
“It broke….,” i sniffed
“Wah damn bad luck right… maybe someone put a spell on you…!” said he
Then later on, i was bending over to put slippers unto a shelf
And scratched my arm on the metal corner of the window next to me till it bumped up and bled slightly
-_-
Then yesterday, in the chicken rice shop
I was sO looking forward to eating it with this thick black sauce i adore
My hands were enthusiastically pumping thick black sauce onto my chicken rice
And the whole bottle cover came off
Causing the ENTIRE bottle contents to ooze onto the table, flooding/covering the saucer i was trying to fill, and spilling onto the floor and walls…
“Wow. You’re such a mess man Joyce,” said Zaidi as he took his first chomp
I could only squeak in protest
Thanks to everyone who has been offering help…
I realised yesterday how lucky i am for having such encouraging parents and amazing friends…
Mary fed me with urm pizza haha
Loga offered to lend me a spare phone
Aaron took me to the police station to report i lost my report… ;p
Ian is trying to get me camera sponsor for the time being
FreckledAdam and me trotted off to make me a new IC in the morning
We finally found the place at 8 am because government people in nearby buildings gave pretty shitt-ass directions
The line was pretty freaking long
It trailed from the first floor of the building…
To downstairs…
To outside in the sun…
Where we stood
-_- *sweating*
You know how they give out 400 numbers in a day?
After all that waiting in line
I was so NEAR the entrance to the room with the counter when they said they only had 25 numbers left
omg
paniC 
We decided to stick it out anyway after waking up so early, walking around looking for the building and lining up
And guess what
I got number 400
THE LAsT number
fucking lucky i kid you not
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