Fairy Sick

Sorry for lack of updates
I’ve been on total MIA since last weekend cos i’ve just been really sick
Instead of being sick for a day or two and getting better, my fevers have got worse and worse with each coming day
I end up shaking uncontrollably from around 10pm onwards and manage to stop if i pop two panadols or paracetamols
I think my shaking is really scaring those who’ve seen it cos it’s so bad i can barely hold something without dropping it

The Manfriend has been really diligent in taking care of me
Getting me to the doctor’s, cooking me what i should eat, buying me what i WANT to eat (to which they’re all tasteless to me atm), making sure i drink lots of water, passing me my meds, putting cartoons on for me to watch, tucking me in, giving lots of hugs.

I finally went home to get out of his hair after four days
And was still sick like shit on Tuesday
So i got HenryIsGold to fetch me to the doctor’s again
Where they made me get a blood test to check if i have dengue

The results came back early night
And i don’t have dengue
Which is good

What is bad is that now she wants me to get a lung x-ray to check for something else

-_-

I spent last night shaking/sweating again
And it’s really tiring
And disgusting
I keep on wanting to take a shower from all these fever spells
Yet i can’t keep on taking showers cos it makes me chilly

And my body hurts like crazy
Everything hurts, i can’t walk properly
I can’t even walk firmly cos my steps seem to jar my head
And causes more headache

Ok i gtg
QueenKanch is here to help fetch me for my x-ray

I just want to know, is it normal for fevers to run for a week or more?
Cos i’m thinking i may just be sick for a long period since i rarely get so sick
And am hoping it’s not something more serious

Whatmore CNY coming wtf
Pantang!

Mmm Not So Fun After All

I thought i’d get sick for a day or two and it’d go away
But it just got worse on Saturday, with my whole body feeling sore even tho i did jack the day before
Took all my medication and resorted to painkillers someone pushed to me cos i found it painful to walk even

And i fell down twice. In the same stupid spot because there isn’t a bathroom mat there and the floor’s wet.
First time was in the morning when i slipped and banged one knee and a palm.
“Are you okay?”
“Owwwwww, your floor’s wet and you don’t have a mat!!!”
“Sorryyyy, does it hurt?”
“Hmph,” i sniffed to myself

Second time was in the afternoon.
And i wasn’t even rushing, mind you.
I was slowly walking through the doors when i did yet another magnificent slip, and hit my head on the doorframe before banging both knees and bruising them on the floor.

It must have been a superb crash cos i heard shouting from the next room – “I have no idea what you’re going to tell me when i ask you what just happened!”

ARGHHHHHHHHH
Dahlah i was having fever, my body was sore, and now i had more injuries!

At times like that, i minused two decades off my actual age and wept like a 5-year-old.

He came to lift me off the floor and laughed at me.
The ass laughed at me as i was weeping in pain.

-_-

Fail dot com.

Correction, super fail dot com.

It’s Time To Dig Deeper

For all sorts of things

The way i run things when it comes to work

i think i’m not doing things properly
cos things *should* be so much easier/less time-consuming
there’s never enough time for me to finish everything
there’s never a day/night i can leave work thinking, “i’m DONE”
cos it’s never done
i think i have no more life

The way i take care of my health

I never really gave a shit about my health before
Cos i always think, “Arh, i’m young, my body can take it, bla bla bla”
Till i went to the doctor’s on Monday and did a major overhaul

I got my throat and fever checked on
Then told her about my skin problems that have recently arisen
She said it’s eczema and prollie due from stress
I was like, “hmm okay, i’ve heard that before, i can take it”
cos hey, stress can be managed, it’s just a matter of thought

I got a PAP smear done
cos i haven’t got one since last year

Then i got a vaccine for prevention against cervical cancer
because every female should get one
and no matter how busy you are (like i am!)
you really SHOULD get your shots for it
admittedly it’s not cheap
RM400 per shot and one has to take 3 shots to complete the process
i was like, “DAMN. That’s a pair of shoes!!!”

What else
Oh, then she inquired about my drinking
“How much do you drink?” she asked, due to certain medication i was being prescribed that does not go well with alcohol
“…. …. …  you mean… every day? … or like, per week?” i stammered, sounding like the absolute bimbo
“You drink every day? Then how much every day?”

Damn. I feel utter guilt admitting to her how much
Even though inside, i feel quite bangga that the amount is nothing like last time
“… Er, two three glasses a day..?”

After pap smear, cervical cancer vaccine, and all that
She told me that i have high blood pressure
Her words: Hmm. You have high blood pressure. You must take care… bla bla bla *goes on about precautions i have to consider*
Me in thought: High blood pressure?! I’m 25!! How can i have high blood pressure?!!!

Anyway, back to my points:

Enjoying time with friends

I got some really impactful smss and face-to-face talks from friends
whom i’ve been close to in the past year
saying how i’ve been different, a shadow, not in touch with emotions
theirs and mine

admittedly, i know i’m very impatient when people call me when i’m at work
i don’t have time
i don’t have time for petty talk
chitter chatter
for me, it’s just say what you want to say, it’d better be important, and get on with it

and i feel bad
cos i didn’t use to be like this last time
I was more carefree, talkative, and giving, in terms of time and self satisfaction

“You must not always think of the money, or else you’ll never stop.
“…………..”
++++++++++=

Hmm okay after all that writing, i forgot what my point was
Anyhoo, i had a great night ending with Deep and DreadlockedHenry making sure i’s okay.

I love them!

I Cannot Tahan Wei

I cannot tahan ppl who talk big wei

Was standing next to some random guy
Who didn’t talk about anything that might pull
Or Interest typical ppl towards him
He was, perhaps, in our world (i say that term, because, yes, we sometimes get caught up in our own world of what’s important)
unintriguing
But i enjoyed talking to him

Then i got pulled to another after party
One of guys with full confidence
Impeccable English (which admittedly, i steer towards)

And you know what happened?

I walked away.

Cos.

I got damn sick and tired of hearing this guy talk bout himself and how much he’s doing for KL
And i get damn emo
Cos
If you’re dong so fucking much for KL
How come my friends (who are very much underground and know the genuine ppl underground) don’t know about what you’re doing?

Then he was dropping names and all that jazz
I didn’t say anything
I don’t think i need to say who i know or whom i’ve worked with

ARGH

I just cannot tahan ppl who talk big but don’t work to prove it

We RECOGNISE the ppl who work like shit and stay undercover

You, are just another rich man’s son who’s leeching off your family’s wealth, went for overseas education (good for you! I wish i had that!), came back, know your connections, have enough social intelligence to have you rubbing shoulders with the who’s who in KL, are trying to start some “business” (gawd, don’t you love these inverted commas) and talk big.

I cannot tahan wei.

I’m rolling my eyes to myself right now while i ignite what you look like.

So when i see you again, i’m not going within 4 feet of you.
Because i can’t be fucked talking to brats like you who think you’re all that.

Maybe It’s Work, Cos I’m Just Being Bitchy

Or maybe it’s the new lamp, that’s giving me a headache cos i’m not used to it.

But i think it’s work, cos when i’m tired (plus the damn headache) i have no patience for people.

On impulse i went to see Aps and StephTheVolcano at my neighbourhood bar to grab a couple of drinks before coming back to face more pc screen.
It was so nice catching up with them alone.
Like a breath of new air, or going on a holiday.
That kinda feeling.

One of the waiters came up to us to tell us to order a round of whatever we wanted cos a bunch of guys wanted to buy us drinks.
We told him to tell them it’s okay, we can buy our own drinks.

45 minutes or so later, a stranger came up and tried to chat Steph and i up (Aps left already cos she has to wake up early for work).
I didn’t want to be mean so i said, “You have 30 seconds.”
Steph stated 2 minutes, the generous thing.

“So you’re the girls who turned down our offer to buy you drinks.”
“We’re not being rude. We can buy our own drinks,” i replied somewhat impatiently.
“But there’s nothing wrong with guys buying some pretty girls some drinks…”

Oh great.
Male chauvinist thinking he can save femalekind by providing them alcohol.
Something i really have no patience to deal with after work.

“We’re not like other girls. We can buy our own drinks. Thanks,” i replied flatly.

To summarize it, he was a bit tipsy, not very interesting, harmless really, but i just wanted to talk to Steph.

“Your two minutes are up,” i smile politely at him.
He got the message and left.

I wasn’t that mean i swear.
I was nice – asked him whether he worked nearby, Steph asked where his friends were from, we asked a few questions, enough time for him to give witty answers to make an impression. But nada.

I’m just glad we didn’t accept any drinks -_-

Look, the whole point we all work is so that we can pay for our own stuff.
If we took drinks from the fellow, then we’d feel obliged to layan him and talk.
I might as well be a guest relations officer in a bar (not that i look down on them. it’s tough work – layaning ppl!)

The fact that we already give so much time and effort to work
is so we don’t have to layan people during our rest time
Like Aps said – “I think we just grew old. Don’t want to spend time on people we don’t want to.”

My Blood Pressure Just Rose

I managed to contract feverish spells during the course of my food poisoning experience, but i swear reading this article just made my head hotter and angry to the point i almost teared.