I brought an old necklace into the store today to get it cleaned.
As the store assistant took it in her hand to inspect it, i couldn’t help apologizing, “Sorry, it’s so dirty..!”
She seemed so poised despite its miserable condition, and i couldn’t help blurting out, “i haven’t worn it for years, an ex boyfriend gave it to me and i didn’t want to wear it, but now that i’m over him, i can.” She giggled a bit and i felt a bit better.
As i waited for my receipt to be ready, i took a look around the store for fun. Checked out the typical heart bracelets you see everywhere, some cool wrist cuffs, diamond earrings, and came across… the wedding rings. The moment i saw couple rings, i just swooped over them. Hmm, no. Not gonna need knowing about those anytime soon. Don’t waste time in store, just move on. Saw a series of rings with little diamonds lining the whole band. They were so pretty.
I stopped, and just stared at every single one of them. Noted down the different sizes of diamonds, their accompanying prices, and which one i was most likely to buy myself if i were to buy myself one. I wasn’t actually going or wanting to buy one at that moment. You know that game you play with yourself? When you see an array of things you really like in a store, and play pretend which one you’d get if you could? (Once i walked around an entire department store noting down all the things i wanted for fun and didn’t buy a single thing.)
As i was doing my thing, my thoughts started dancing through my head.
Wait, why would i buy myself a diamond ring?
Those diamonds are so pretty
Diamond ring… me buying myself a diamond ring…
Well, why not?
Yeah, why not.
No one’s gonna buy me a diamond ring any time soon, so i might as well aim to buy myself one!
I might as well just marry myself! Hahaha!
I laughed inwardly at my thoughts, and hurried back to the counter to collect my receipt.
Walking out of the store felt liberating. Who knew a solo trip to Tiffany’s could be such an adventure!
I told KrazyKatKyan how i’d recently dug out all the jewelry past boyfriends gave me, and started wearing all of them. I used to store them in the drawer because i was either too emotionally distraught by it, or other boyfriends didn’t like me wearing it. (Can i just say now to all girls, when you have a boyfriend, there really is no need to tell them where that jewellery before him came from.)
Now i took them all out. I feel emotionally free to wear them now and it feels great.
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The above happened when i went to KLCC today for an appointment and squeezed dropping by Tiffany’s between that and a quick 30-minute dinner by myself. It’s been REALLY busy. But it’s been great. There are so many things going on, things that i want to get done. I haven’t slept this little since… TiC days. Man i really need to practice work/life balance. Things will get better after mid-March, or maybe end March. Oh my god and then i have to move house.
Ok i can’t wait for June.
